As most of you all know, I have been taking online college classes this entire school year (which ends in 3 weeks!!) and will be heading off to college this upcoming fall. To say that I am excited would be a HUGE understatement. This college search adventure has had so many ups and downs and loop-ti-loops but I'm so thankful for every second of it because this process has really grown me as a person. My faith and trust in God has skyrocketed these past few months and I can honestly say that I am truly happy with my life. Five months ago? You may have gotten a different answer. Just shows how much God can work out in five months.
I honestly can't believe it is April. Like, hello?? Where did the past eight months of my life go? Fall semester feels like it happened 10 months ago. Crazy crazy crazzzaaayyy. This school year seems like it lasted a long time, but went by really quickly. I realize that makes absolutely no sense...
Moving on.
April is an extremely busy month for me. Really busy. Not only is this my last month of school before summer break (can I get an AMEN), but this is also the month I have to make my final decision on the school I will be living/studying at for the next four years. Normally, I would be freaking out at this point. Full out - FREAKING OUT. Big decisions do not go well with me, and considering that this is the MOST important decision I will have to make so far, I'm sure you can understand the level of stress that could be bursting through the charts at this point.
While I absolutely could be freaking out right now, I am absolutely not doing so. I have so much peace right now; I can't even tell you how awesome it feels to say that. I am not worried, or stressed about any of this because I know that God has it and everything will work out just the way it is supposed to. God has just been working so much and I'm so thankful. SO thankful.
Getting accepted into a college that I forgot I applied to and getting a totally unexpected scholarship.
Being denied by a school that I was positive I would get into.
Not hearing back from a college because they lost my paper work.
Going to a freshman admitted day.
Praising Jesus through all of it.
When I got rejected from that one school, I was really okay about it. I read the letter, and just thanked God for closing the door.
People probably think I'm weird, and I am a-okay with that. I am so happy. Like, running around in a field laughing my head off type of happy. I mean, I'm grinning writing this whole post for goodness sake! God is my heartbeat and I have been so overwhelmed for His love for me. My heart breaks for so many teens out there who have been hurt or judged. I just want to give them all great big hugs and remind them that God hasn't left them. I have been praying so much more lately and it has been amazing. Prayer is so beautiful and so meaningful. It simply amazes me that God knows me and knows the thoughts I think and the words I speak before I even say them. That He listens and answers. Blows.my.mind.
I hope you all are having a fantastic start to your week and that you guys are continually seeking God every day! xox
Keep strong.
I am so glad that you have God's peace as you look to the future! Your heart for God is absolutely beautiful. You are setting a great example. I know that God will do amazing things through your your lift because of your commitment to Him. I am praying for you as I type and I will continue to lift you up.
ReplyDeleteWishing you all God's best!
Love,
Melissa
I am so excited for you in so many ways Lexi! God has a plan for your life and you are trusting Him. That can be so hard for many of us. I love that you are learning these valuable lessons at such a young age. Your joy is contagious! Keep on praying and leaning on Him every step of the way. You will be a light for others. I know you will spread the love of Jesus no matter where He places you.
ReplyDeleteBlessings and love,
Debbie