Ever since the beginning of mankind, humans have been trying to figure out an unfathomably crazy thing called love. Today, there have been more books written, movies made, and songs sung about love than any other topic out there. But even with all its publicity, love has not been understood. It has not been adequately defined, because unlike what we all think, love cannot be confined in the corners of our minds. Love cannot be described in mere words, nor can it be seen with action alone. Love is a simple complexity: so much more than what we imagine, yet not as hard to know as we may think.
Kisses on the forehead, whispered words, a needed hug...these things are not love, but branches of the core. The trueness of love, real love, is not what can be seen with the eye, but with the depths of your soul. Love is a conviction - not convenient. Love is a completion - not a feeling.
I guess it's hard to say in words what you've been experiencing in your heart. Right now I've been taking it day-by-day... one step at a time.... because God's been teaching me that I need to start over. To let go of my old fears, my past failures, and my current insecurities and focus on becoming someone better. someone I want to be. the person God expects me to be.
Love has always existed, so it makes sense why people want to know everything about it. But what we want to know soon turns into what we want it to be, doesn't it? See, love isn't birthed from romance, money, or success - that's just what people want it to come from. Those things are what we can control, but love isn't confined to limits.
For so long I feared that love would fail me because trusting love meant that I had to hand over everything. I wasn't ready for that. I wanted to be, but I wasn't. I've started to realize that love doesn't change when I do - it just keeps on giving. I just have to make the decision to choose it.
Living for love meant that I had to get off of my couch of "I can'ts" and start turning them into "I will's." To actually start living and not just simply be alive.
Standing underneath God's chisel ain't a walk in the park, but being able to confess "I need you" is something I wish I did more often.
You cannot affect love by the things you do, but love can certainly affect what you do because...
Love cannot be broken, but you can be broken in the force of love.
I have been broken, but love has not failed me.
Starting over is not easy, but love is always worth the cost.
I wasn't ready before, but I am now.
|Happy Valentine's Day|
This is beautiful and very deep Lexi! If only I had learned this at your age (sigh).
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Love,
Mrs. Petras